Now for me when I say the past I’m referring to my recent failures in my exams. It seems that everyone that sees me and does not know of my grades will keep pestering me about it. This then causes my parents to begin their lecturing and mocking of my degree choice. If I’m honest it’s quite rude and degrading. I feel as though I can’t shake of these shackles of staying at home doing nothing, it sounds pathetic but I need to get the grades for next year and due to certain circumstances I am currently unable to get a job. But honestly I get worried and fear I won’t be able to achieve my grades, I failed so badly the first time so why would I do any better this time? But I have to shake off those fears if I want to go to uni and move forward in life.
I need to keep pushing towards my goal. We all do. We all have setbacks and hurdles on our path in life. We just need to make sure we don’t trip up on them and fall off that path.
Also I would like to say R.I.P. to Nelson Mandela. A great man who fought for equality and he himself made sure he reached his goal. He was thrown into jail for 27 years yet still he did not waver in his belief. His actions have allowed a country to finally unite and for apartheid to be a thing of the past. He truly is the Father of S.Africa
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”
- Nelson Mandela
Winter is now well and truly here in the northern hemisphere. I know in Australia they celebrate Christmas in the scorching heat yet over here in the UK there’s the whole idea of a white snowing Christmas, as lovely as it sounds it always causes travel disruptions to families trying to meet up for the festivities period and hence people secretly don’t want a white christmas over here. However the real issue is that the cold days and nights bring is the rise in energy bills. Many families are feeling the pinch this Christmas and have to not only purchase presents but also keep the house warm and with energy prices rising in the UK, a lot of us who may has shopped House of Fraser up until now will find ourselves walking into Next. Many homeless people die each year due to the weather as well, elderly people are also as risk as many are by themselves and therefore they are vulnerable to theft or even unable to put on the heating or fireplace.
Whilst the start of December heralds the arrival of Christmas we shouldn’t forget about those around us who are not in the same position as us. Giving away left overs to homeless people will make their day and don’t forget to invite your (great) grandmother/grandfather.
“The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other’s life. Rarely do members of one family grow up under the same roof.”
So from Saturday morning till afternoon this Monday I was busy visiting my girlfriend at her university. People I message a lot can always tell since I’ll hardly message them during the times when I’m seeing her regardless of whether it’s a few hours or a few days.
We had our traditional dominos pizza and watched movies till 4am. I can honestly say I’m at my happiest when I’m with her and saying goodbye to her for a few weeks is the hardest thing to do. But it’s given me motivation to work hard so I can see her more next year when I’m at university if I ace my exams.
We all need a push or shove or even a kick up the ass in order to get us going again and motivate us. When things aren’t looking great and you can’t keep your chin up you really need someone to lift your head for you so you can see the infinite possibilities that are out there. You help me do that, thank you so much.
“Hard work spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don’t turn up at all.”
- Sam Ewing
Sorry everybody for the lack of posts in the last few days. I’ve had a lot to do and honestly haven’t had the energy to write a blog post. I really need to start my motivational quotes and pictures once more. I’m off to see my girlfriend this weekend so I’ll be busy with that but next week I’ll be back on track with my blog. I’ll have a few posts about my thoughts on things and others on how I’m coping. It’s almost December…time does fly and I’ll be flying off soon too.
Don’t run away, I’ll be back!
I’m frustrated at my lack of freedom and ability to do what I like. I’m waiting though this year as patiently as possible but it’s still annoying nonetheless how restricted my life has become. I feel that I truly have lost so much and that I need to get the grades this year in order to stop myself from losing more. I’m working hard but constant reminders of my failure hinder my progress. Don’t you wish sometimes that people understood you more and were more supportive?
“It is wise to direct your anger towards problems — not people; to focus your energies on answers — not excuses.”
- William Arthur Ward
It’s been quite a busy week. It’s had it’s ups and down. From the arguments with parents to skyping my girlfriend which cheered me up infinitely. I’ve decided to get a console, definitely not the new ones since I can’t afford them but the xbox360/ps3 wil suffice and keep me entertained. I’ve been filled with motivation to try and get enough money to be able to purchase both it and a screen. I’ve also got university visit days and interviews coming up. I’ll be quite hectic over the next few weeks so apologies for the lack of posts (although I already am lacking!). I’ve had my depressive weeks but I’ve realised that I need to keep moving and that time is most definitely ticking away. Soon it will be the exams and next September/October I’ll be moving into university if I work hard this year. Sacrifices will be made, tears will be shed but it’ll be worth it if I can get into university. It all depends on how badly you want it. How far you will go on order to achieve it. Your desire. Your hunger. All I know right now is that I’m starving.
“Men go to far greater lengths to avoid what they fear than to obtain what they desire.”
- Dan Brown
I find sometimes people lack respect for others. We judge others simply on their jobs and then look at them as though they are beneath us. Simply due to my degree choice I am seen as someone who is lower in the community than a doctor or engineer. Would you agree with that? You don’t know me or the person who is a doctor or engineer and so you can’t make such a decision simply by their degree or job. Personalities do matter a lot and sometimes you’ll find that the whole classification of degrees meaning you are of a certain class leads to that person feeling they are better than their own community that placed them on the throne at the top as they have a ‘professional’ degree. I know of cases in asian communities (I’m south asian myself) where a son/daughter has become a doctor and is treated with such respect that they feel like royalty. They then see other communities from different ethnicities and feel that their own one is too low for them and hence they cut contact with their family and get married & move away. It was quite the shock for their parents but a reality check that societies are ever changing with ethnicities mixing freely now. If you treat some people with much greater respect than others, not only will those that are treated badly seek shelter in the warmth of others but the ones treated well will feel they can do better and move elsewhere too. This leads to dysfunctional community that is changing with the elder generation fixated on the traditional ways and the younger generation breaking away to form their own families and modern values.
Respect the decision your children make it life otherwise it may have a very negative impact on your life later on.
“I speak to everyone in the same way, whether he is the garbage man or the president of the university.”
- Albert Einstein